Insomnia fueled posts about Thea.

I would say we can't sleep... But obviously it's just me that can't. She's doing just fine and I can officially add "soft pillow" to my list of endearing qualities.

They call me Aunt Kiki.

Rave.
I'm gonna start out by saying that I love children. Although I don't have any plans at this time in my life to ever get pregnant on purpose, because all of the little shits I deal with at work are horrible, I do need to say I have the cutest "nieces" in the world. I say "nieces" because these girls are my cousins' children. They are my world. One day if I have kids I hope they are awesome as these two. I will always be their Aunt Kiki. :)

Mondays.

Rant.

I hate working on Mondays.

Let me tell you about my best friend.

Rave.

You know you have an awesome dog when she makes silly faces with you. Being up early isn't half bad when this cutie keeps you company.

What must be shall be.

Rave.

Over the next two days we will be saying goodbye and celebrating the long, wonderful life that my Grandma Matthieu had. I have learned so many invaluable life lessons from her. She is truly one of the greatest women I have ever had the honor of knowing.

I love you Grandma. One day we will eat iced oatmeal cookies and watch Ray Stevens movies again. I'll even let you chase me with the yard stick you always threatened to whoop me with for being mouthy. Til then, you'll just have to keep an eye out on me. :)

Oh you fancy, huh?

Rave.

New hair. New bangs. New color. Spiffy.

P.S. Ignore that crater of a pimple on my chin. It's an asshole and won't go away.

Trust? Ain't Nobody Got Time For That.

Rant.


I am a very trusting person. I am a very open person. I wear my heart on my sleeve. I say what I feel and think. Obviously you've figured this out by now. That's just how I am. With these qualities, you can imagine that I get myself trampled on all of the time. You would think that by now I would learn to stop giving trust and make people earn it. But no. I always see the good in people. It's my biggest flaw.


That all being said, nothing grinds my gears more than when bitch ass people can't shut their fucking mouths about shit they don't know anything about and then don't have the common decency to say it to my face. I fucking hate cowards. (And I was going to try to do this with the least amount of cuss words possible. I should get an A for effort). Not everyone was raised with kick ass parents like I was. I've always been encouraged to voice my opinion no matter wrong or right. And as you can tell, I always have a lack of filter about what I'm thinking.


I just think that people should own up to what they do and say what they think or feel. Stop being fucking pussies about everything. Granted, not everyone is as blunt as I am. I can come across as very judgemental and brutally honest. And that's fine with me. I will never change that about me. At least you won't ever worry about what I'm thinking.


I guess this is a good lesson to learn. It's just emotionally and mentally exhausting to feel this way all of the time. I guess I just put so much faith and trust in others because that's how I treat people and expect people to treat me. Guess it's just wishful thinking. I keep forgetting that people are shit.

 

Every. Single. Fucking. Time.